Wednesday, August 20, 2008

i feel out
i am considering bleeding myself to get rid of it
just like they did in the 1800"s
i am going to put leeches on my heart


it's not that easy to be free
don't concern yourself with reality
because
we will sleep forever

Monday, August 18, 2008

wake from this dream

it was the Summer of '89 I lost myself
now there is this summer always within me
never to turn
even in the winter I burn with a beautiful nightmare inside
would somebody please put a pin in me to let it out

Monday, August 11, 2008

your average night:
punching holes in the ceiling
screaming myself to sleep
tied to the sheets
would you come for me
because i can't stand all the lies
i've been telling myself
there has to be more than one way out
send in everything you've got
because the sun is going down

Monday, August 4, 2008


In my mind it's just a hall of mirrors
I can't tell where anything begins or ends or if its a
reflection of all the pain I see from outside
it comes in and then I will never be able to
get rid of it, it just keeps bouncing like a cruel
dance and I can't do anything but watch again
a again

Sunday, August 3, 2008




Its like being inside of a raging storm


totally blinded. all you know is that it hurts


its so strange to freeze on the outside